Over the past 10 years I have weighed as little as 125 pounds and as much as 160 pounds. This does not include pregnancy and losing pregnancy weight. One thing I have learned from being many different sizes, weight is just a number! How much I weigh and how big or small I am does not define who I am. My weight is not what makes me happy or what makes me feel good about myself.
I remember in my early 20’s when I gained weight for the first time in a way that I didn’t like it. I was complaining to my friends that I had gained 10 pounds. One of my friends looked at me and said “if you gain 10 pounds or lose 10 pounds, it doesn’t change who you are”. Those words grabbed onto my heart and stuck with me forever.
Women come in all shapes and sizes and we need to embrace our bodies!! When I scroll down Instagram I am very aware that I do not have a typical “blogger” body. I do not have long thin legs with a huge thigh gap. I am most definitely not a size 0. But I don’t care. I love my body. I love that I have curvy hips and a big butt and thicker thighs. And there have been times over the years that I was thinner and a smaller size. And I loved my body then too.
The point I’m trying to make, is love your body no matter what! And don’t let your size determine your happiness.
6 months ago I moved across the country and started working full time. With this big life change my work outs disappeared. They left the building! Because of that I have gained 10 pounds in the last 6 months, weighing me in currently at 150 pounds. I haven’t been that thrilled about it. Especially since I had to buy all new jeans. But I reminded myself of what’s really important and I am embracing my extra weight because it’s me. So much in my life has changed and my work outs have taken a lower priority. And that’s ok, it’s the stage that I am in right now.
The crazy thing is, right now I am the happiest I have ever been in my whole life. And I’m not just saying that to be cheesy. My marriage has never been better. My kids are amazing, healthy and bring me so much joy every single day. I love living in Florida and being able to go to the pool and beach in February! I love living right next to my family. I love my job. So who cares if I’ve gained some weight. It’s just weight! It’s not the thing that actually matters in life.
If you take anything away from this blog post, is love your body no matter what! And be nice to yourself! If you think losing weight and being super thin will make you happy, it won’t. Some of my worst times is when I was really thin. Focus on who you are. Love yourself and know that you are beautiful, always!